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Let’s talk about depression…

I used to suffer from the debilitating kind.

I’d have those days where I’d wake up and I couldn’t lift my head because it felt like someone had placed a brick on my forehead.

When it got really bad I’d feel suicidal and I tried to kill myself twice.

I don’t believe depression is an illness in and of itself – it’s just a symptom of repressed emotion, trauma, stagnant energy or a knot in your heart that you haven’t honoured or acknowledged.

I don’t have those really dark moments anymore but I have felt quite heavy and low for the past couple of days.

I couldn’t figure out why.

Then this morning I pulled an angel card for Archangel Haniel (a moon goddess) and it said “Honour your feelings.”

So I did.

I took a deep breath and did a few rounds of EFT tapping, allowing myself to honour and acknowledge all of what I was feeling – stuck, frustrated, angry with myself, fed up that things in my life weren’t moving fast enough, impatient, perfectionistic.

The tears came and I let them.

I leant in to that resistance and afterwards I felt so much lighter and brighter.

The perfectionist in me didn’t even want to acknowledge I was being a perfectionist so that’s why I’d gone into a slump – you don’t have to worry about getting things perfect if you don’t try at all.